Post by Julia on Mar 11, 2008 17:19:08 GMT -5
...though I do prefer you kill me.
Yeah, seventh grade is pure hell. Rumors, best friends (crushes? eh, Julia is freaking confused. I don't like him...do I?), track, etc, etc.
Yeah, I'm a lesbian now that there's a rumor going around school that I am, yet I'm in love with my best friend. Weird, right?
Plus, I'm off all medicines (even pain && depression, the ones I practically need to survive), making me even MORE unstable than I already am. Not good. So, yeah. My day pretty much is mental breakdowns and "Shut the hell up"s anymore.
This is actually hard to type, just because I'm scared of what ya'll would think. The whole day I was thinking of how you'd react..."OH! She just wants attention." "OH! She's just upset because people have finally found out her true sexuality."
Go ahead and think that. It's not true. I cry a lot more than I used to. I thought I was getting better, and I'm trying to find a new counciler so I can deal with these problems without having a breakdown, but I just can't seem to find one good enough.
And yeah, I'm in track, so every Monday I won't be on, because we leave after lunch and don't get home until eleven.
I love you all. I really do, but this isn't a problem I can solve by being mean or rude. I can't scream, "bloody hell YOU!" at the top of my lungs and the problem will be gone. Oh, no. I just don't know how to deal with people's shit anymore.
Gooooood god, I want to die.
I love you all so much and I will be back on full time once this problem is gone!
But for now, you can email me on UmbrellaAcademy9@aim.com if this site dies and I'm not here to find out.
I'll get on and check my PMs every once and a while. Probably during math class.
Anyways, I need to go. I hope to talk to you all soon.
Never trust a smile; some people are stronger than you think.
-Julia//Lee Lethal Injection ™
PS- Danny, don't piss Ems off when she's having a bad day...Daniel...
Yeah, I'm a lesbian now that there's a rumor going around school that I am, yet I'm in love with my best friend. Weird, right?
Plus, I'm off all medicines (even pain && depression, the ones I practically need to survive), making me even MORE unstable than I already am. Not good. So, yeah. My day pretty much is mental breakdowns and "Shut the hell up"s anymore.
This is actually hard to type, just because I'm scared of what ya'll would think. The whole day I was thinking of how you'd react..."OH! She just wants attention." "OH! She's just upset because people have finally found out her true sexuality."
Go ahead and think that. It's not true. I cry a lot more than I used to. I thought I was getting better, and I'm trying to find a new counciler so I can deal with these problems without having a breakdown, but I just can't seem to find one good enough.
And yeah, I'm in track, so every Monday I won't be on, because we leave after lunch and don't get home until eleven.
I love you all. I really do, but this isn't a problem I can solve by being mean or rude. I can't scream, "bloody hell YOU!" at the top of my lungs and the problem will be gone. Oh, no. I just don't know how to deal with people's shit anymore.
Gooooood god, I want to die.
I love you all so much and I will be back on full time once this problem is gone!
But for now, you can email me on UmbrellaAcademy9@aim.com if this site dies and I'm not here to find out.
I'll get on and check my PMs every once and a while. Probably during math class.
Anyways, I need to go. I hope to talk to you all soon.
Never trust a smile; some people are stronger than you think.
-Julia//Lee Lethal Injection ™
PS- Danny, don't piss Ems off when she's having a bad day...Daniel...